How do i make true friends?

This is very embarrassing to come out and say this but its w.e. you guys don't know me and I don't know you guys. Im 21 years old and just starting now to notice im anti social. Its hard for me to stay connected with new people I think its cuz im afraid to get to know them and find out things I don't like. Sometimes I force myself to get to know someone and to me it feels like im not being myself and im neing a fake person cuz I know how I stick to myself. My family has always said to me that im a loner, but they always put it in a goods way. I don't like being a loner I hate it now so much. I remember when I was young I was always made fun of because I sound like a white guy but im black. I say slang words and sht but its my pitch. So in school I just stayed quite and stayed to myself. All my friends are females and they only hmu when their sad or feel bad about somethin I always feel like a fool to swoop in and heal them emotionaly because when im down and out I don't call anyone and tell them. I try to stick it out and keep it inside. Sometimes I feel like its just so much of a hassle to have many friends cuz im afraid of loosing them in the long run or they might expect so much out of me. Im I the only one that feels that way? Should I push myself harder to make and keep friends?